⊱fourteenth vision | audio
Jul. 11th, 2011 01:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taravataI never knew a time when my Ma wasn't off her nut.
After my father left, after I was born- guess all that did something to her. She was a religious crazy. Did things like keep me in the house for days, readin' bible verses like it'd chase something out of me. Didn't really get the chance to make many friends, on account of that. Also on account of havin' to work to survive.
I guess I was lonely back then. Never thought of it that way- in words. Still, I felt it.
You know what's funny?
I'm free now, I get to make my own decisions. And I'm still kinda alone. I ain't good with talkin'. Ain't good with people. When you're raised like that, I guess you forget what it's like to not be by yourself.
There's two kinds of loneliness: one, where you got people around you, but you're still separated. The other, where you actually got no one.
[ The soft buzz of an open connection. Silence sits on his tongue. ]
Anybody lookin' for a place to live?
After my father left, after I was born- guess all that did something to her. She was a religious crazy. Did things like keep me in the house for days, readin' bible verses like it'd chase something out of me. Didn't really get the chance to make many friends, on account of that. Also on account of havin' to work to survive.
I guess I was lonely back then. Never thought of it that way- in words. Still, I felt it.
You know what's funny?
I'm free now, I get to make my own decisions. And I'm still kinda alone. I ain't good with talkin'. Ain't good with people. When you're raised like that, I guess you forget what it's like to not be by yourself.
There's two kinds of loneliness: one, where you got people around you, but you're still separated. The other, where you actually got no one.
[ The soft buzz of an open connection. Silence sits on his tongue. ]
Anybody lookin' for a place to live?
